Last week was so depressing that I couldn't even put my chart on. I had gained .6 lb. I had worked hard to get my diet sweater to the point where I needed the next ball of yarn, so it was upsetting to go home without it. I did finish two socks while I couldn't work on it.

But yesterday went better. I had lot 1.2 lbs so I got the much-needed ball of yarn and stayed up until after midnight trying to make up for lost time.



Of course the other depressing thing is that after losing 11 lbs I weigh about what I did when I started Weight Watchers four years ago. In other words, I am at my former heaviest ever. In other other words, I now have a new heaviest ever and it is upsetting. My pants from last fall don't fit, so I can't wear my orange pants on Halloween; although it is ten days away. If I starve like crazy maybe I can lose 5 lbs in ten days.

Previously when I've had a diet sweater, I stopped working on it because I was finishing the sweater faster than I was losing weight. I can't do that this time. Some of the yarn for that other diet sweater disappeared, and I can't afford to have that keep happening. But the sweaters will fit eventually if I stick with it.

My current goal is to write down everything that passes my lips even if it's really really inappropriate. It sort of makes me put on the brakes. Also, if I try to get in all my "required" foods such as the fruits and vegetables, milk, etc. early in the day at least I'm filling up on healthier stuff. The next step I need to work on is having actual planned meals ready. It's hard to lose weight living off pot pies.